Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Monday, May 23, 2011

First Taste

So I'm a paranormal investigator, that is just a little too slutty for my own good. And trying to ask questions and get the answers I want the tables are turned on me and I'm the one being beaten into submission by the very person I was sent to investigate.
That was the set up for our scene. My Mistress and I had just met and had scheduled to play ASAP, witch turned out to be that weekend.
I was told to wear something semi professional. But with lots of things that are fun to take off. And to make sure my tits where easily accessible, clothed or otherwise. So I wore my favorite push up bra and front open eye hook corset to show my tits on a platter, a kimono deep v-neck top and a long sheer black skirt. Add purple fish nets and my favorite black suede heels and I was ready. I kept my hair accessible, but in a dirty bun so it couldn't get in the way and matched my make up to the fishnets.
I got there as early as possible and took very little time settling in. She led me to her favorite room a while covered bedroom with a chair and big cushy footrest. There is also a nice big window and we all know how much I love those.
Questioning started as if I was there for her 'services'. She quickly changed to how had I hear about her and who exactly had sent me. I tryed to cover my actual intentions, and got just a little too close. I kept edging toward her till we were both on the bed. She grabbed me and wrapped her arms around my back cupping each tit with a gloved hand. I felt her heart beat in my shoulder and she started whispering her questions in my ear. Where had I come from. Who had sent me. What was I there for. As I averted the questions in the usual way the whisper became a his. Making the hairs on the back of my neck stand on end. I tryed to break away.  Wiggling forward, her hands instinctively moved from below each boob to clawing the front of them. Her fingers firmly planted right around my aureoles. I wasn't going anywhere. She might be a skinny little thing, but there is allot of power in those arms. She got me settled back down and disengaged. I didn't feel the coldness a body can leave when they move from next to you. She is incredible good at holding the space. She layed out her toys on the end table next to the bed. Methodically placing them, taking special care with each one. I layed back on the bed and let my feet dangle off the bed. Deciding to kick off my shoes, I was quickly noticed and instructed to drop the skirt. She circled back around me and as I tryed to find my spot on the bed, ended up square in her lap. I was quickly shackled by her now bare hands on my breasts once again. Her long agile fingers making contact through the padding and layers of fabric. My shirt was next, I didn't struggle. Untied from the back and discarded quickly. She took care to unhook each eye hook first down the front of my corset and then the four in the back of my bra. She aptly did all this without once touching my skin. I was surveyed on the bed naked aside from my fishnet and thong. She pushed me back, letting my legs dangle and got on top of me, like a spider. She straddled my hips with hands on my chest. She dug her nails in this time. Five pints just on the edge of my aureoles, she dared me to struggle. I was able to half buck her off, but her hands stayed firmly planted. Anchoring me back to the bed, but ass now half hanging off. As she reached for one of her toys I was able to get away enough to sit up but stay on the bed. Never dare an Aries. She just smiled at this and picked out the toy she wanted. A pink rubber squid whip. Before I knew it she had me laying down once again, face first this time, tits cradled in her hands her now at my back. Time stood still and yet we went like this for hours. Her sensitizing my nerves. With little stingy toys and those expressive fingers. Daring me to struggle and try to get away, but me never getting very far. My heart raced the whole time. My eyes closed for most of it. I just needed to feel and listen. Nothing else mattered in the world. We apparently were walked in on many a time, and always they would linger to see what exactly we were doing. Listen to me moan and gasp or the instructions that only I needed to understand. She brought out her blades first setting each one in the middle of my chest, so I could feel their weight, and the temperature of the metal. They are both Renaissance style Celtic hunting knives. Decorative and dull, just perfect to cutting into my soul.  She first traced stars on my breasts, from throat to nipples. The journey made me shiver. I tryed
I had foolishly expected more impact play, and even more foolishly asked when the warm up would end. She just smiled at me, and assured me that what we had just done was no warm up. We finished our chocolate cigarettes and went back in.
We went back down stairs. This time to a cross. She had no restraints but didn't need them. She first pressed me against the wood with her own body, putting my hands where she wanted them. They instinctively stayed where they where put. This time she focused purely on my back. She used her whole arsenal on me this time. Mostly very stingy stuff, but she obliged to my request and got some thud out of them. I need to get her some wooden toys. She tasted me at some point. Licking the back of my neck and then biting my shoulder blades. Right in the spots I hold my stress. She used her knives allot. And she informed me later that at one point we had an audience of just under 10 people. Our scene ended with the party, and she was amazed at how quickly I grounded myself and that after a few minutes of sitting on her lap, I was able to walk away without any help. Her Principal sub has allot more trouble with such things. She chalks it up to my switchy side. We walked out and she tryumphetly brought up my former misconceptions about the first half of our scene. I now know that was no warm up. We went out to eat and talk for another several hours. I don't remember much because I was still on such a high. I do remember her warnings that this was just my first taste of her. And how much she enjoyed her first taste of me. As well as how she loved that I didn't shy away from rubbing back against her. We finally parted paths and I drove home.
I was sore for days afterward. And stayed home recovering. She has since reminded me that this was only a taste. I can't wait till we play again. Next time 24hrs of a private hotel scene. Just the 2 of us. Yummy. This time she won't be able to stay fully dressed. I'll make sure of that!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Mistress Says

This is just the paragraphs my Mistress sends me.
She is such a beautiful writer, so I had to showcase them.
And this is only the beginning.

I think I have finally figured out how to articulate my idea of  the theme of our scene ... what my soul is telling me suits you and I! To embrace your seductive feisty nature...how about you are an investigator of the paranormal and spiritual beings and entities with some...organization... and you are supposed to investigate and interrogate me through seduction and your brilliance and wisdom in spiritual knowledge... and you get much more  than you bargained for ... and you end up in Mistress Black Widows ( my scene name) spiritual web! Eventually entangled ... and horribly conflicted... I figure it will make any playful attempts at distraction or struggles appropriately enjoyable and highly charged... As well as genuinely celebrating both of our extraordinary beings and experiences throughout the entire scene... firm the beginning to the after care!
Captivate me! I will very much enjoy undressing you to! The theme is essentially reverse interrogation! Or another description would be an interrogation gone awry! A professional seductress getting seduced or A spider caught in a bigger web... I realized that there is a strong possibility our scene will  become very sensual very quickly...where the sensations experienced... may end up entirely a fluctuating balance of energetic and spiritual and very sensual and intimated. This doesn't mean there will not be any use of my toys ... especially my riding crop and daggers (hence the theme of the seductress becoming seduced!) I am merely very much aware of the many sadistic healing and intimate and sensual things I want to give you and experience with you already! One thing I have always enjoyed whenever I play is how scene's always ebb and flow.. I am not a control freak... and am most free in energetic chaos...and unknowing...that is where I am most grounded... most free... home ...and I am I already embracing how much you've let me in already... I've been imagining your outfit, your energy, and how your going to interrogate and seduce me. I've even dreamt about our scene. I am so charged up! You are such a beautiful, sexy, vibrant extraordinary woman! It's been an experience observing the exchange of energy between us since Tuesday night! It's as if we're playing with energy and intensity alone! Connected, enticed, beautifully intense! I am extremely honored, grateful and almost completely prepared! You are truly extraordinary Raina! I hope when you come to the awareness in our scene that you are in fact the one being ... questioned ... interrogated... and your seduction and teasing is not only horribly effective but too effective and now you've got yourself in a bit of a bind is as evocative and surprising and twisted and hot...as I've been envisioning! You've let me in so much... into your heart...your spirit...and I have done the same! Only my principal sub and the other woman who would've become my 2nd primary sub have I experienced a similarly intense while entirely individual and uniquely extraordinary... bond, trust, electrifying compatibility... and it is amazing! And this is only the beginning! I am already in awe of you! I am trying to imagine being captivated... reeled in! I am rendered speechless at the images and energies are invoked! The words that come to mind are... Mmmmm! Yummy! and Tasty! the images and energies that spark in my mind and heart and spirit leave me breathless! I speak from my heart and the core of my spirit ...genuinely...earnestly...honestly! Just wait until tomorrow...than you'll experience the magic I can work with my hands...lips...energy...touch...voice...and healing! My words make you quiver? Is it as if I am reaching through my words and comforting, stimulating, and exciting? My principal sub has told me...something similar. You and I are are such a delightful match! I've been feeling your seducing touch through your texts and from your energies since we met! Naturally I am inclined to seduce, tantalize, excite (wrap my energetic hands around your breasts ... or sensually brush your inner thighs) in response...with the unique warm, safe, stimulating tingly sensation as I envelope you with my energetic essence...it is a seductive dance beyond words... and physical limitations...and overlaps into the realms of dream...heals and comforts...and is enhanced a thousand fold when physically together! Hence my nearly melting at Wicked Grounds the other day...and my barely able to contain excitement about playing with you soon! I have only encountered this intensely extraordinary and indescribable integration of energies and spirits with two other woman as you know! And I've played with many people over the years...I rarely am as excited and in awe as I am with you! The mutually revitalizing experience is as extraordinary and extraordinarily rare as you are! I of course can give much much much more! And tonight ... if you well allow me...I will envelope you with my spirit...visit you in your dreams...celebrate you entirely...thoroughly...and if you close your eyes...you will feel my hands massaging...tingling on your breasts...and the safety of a dark ancient cloak...and wings! Nurturing you ...protecting you... empowering...and as you let me in deeper.... I let you deeper into my spirit...my energies...my being .... all that I am! I am so honored! So beyond gratitude! so invigorated! And so very excited! As the night progresses... I will be with you! Nurturing... healing... stimulating...empowering... sending pulses of my unique and intense energies exactly where you need, want and crave... of warm tingly orgasmic pleasure ... safety..care...devotion... and presence...through your spirit... your body...your thoughts! You are safe...Until we play I will be with you energetically...spiritually...as if I am with you physically and substantially until we both arrive at the Play Party tomorrow... and certainly afterwards! I am here! You are so beautiful! So amazing! So sexy! So extraordinary! I will be visiting you in your dreams! You will recognize me as the spiritual being. I am in my many different incarnations... and the familiarity and intensity of my uniquely intense... ancient...and pleasurable energy... sometimes guiding...sometimes protecting... sometimes comforting... sometimes giving you gifts... always giving almost overwhelming pleasure... sensation... and spiritual sensuality throughout!

April 21, 11:20pm

Friday, April 29, 2011

Falling

A quick background: I've been dating this guy for not particularly long. I had just fallen into a poly situation and was looking for a primary. He's sweet, super geeky and so vanilla. He is fine with me being me and getting what I need. Even though he has no interest in the queer kinky lifestyle I've become so accustomed to. He's so much smarter than me, yet he loves even my slightest smile. In the first few weeks of us dating I could of sworn, I could have farted around him and he would have thought it was the curtest thing ever.
All this is to say I really didn't expect to be falling so completely for him. We actually got to spend the night alone, in a bed like a real couple for the first time and cuddled and talked all night. About who we are, why we are that way. Exes, family and experience. And of course had some amazing vanilla sex. We fit together like we where made for each other. In so many ways.
I'm actually having that feeling that I could comfortably and happily be with him for some time. That butterflies, ohh moment, that I chose better than i had thought. I really wasn't expecting any of that, not this late in the game. That usually happens to me right away. But this time it's less of an upheaval and more of a small slide. It's yummy and sweet. And totally uncharacteristic. For both of us. It's nice.