My Trail to Top

So I'm an Aries, I'll start there. I'm the first one in bed to be 'fuck it, let's fuck'. Or the one that knows how to divide and conquer. So I tended toward the opposite of all that pushiness
and loved when someone else was completely in control. But my top side was always in there.

It's quite evident in my reactions to certain sexual activities. I've always hated being distracted when giving oral, I get off purely by getting my partner off and I love getting people all hot and bothered and then leaving. Soliciting a reaction is the goal, being in control of some one's mind and toying with them. My tops and doms seem to have the same goal. If I'm not giving the proper response, punishment gets tougher.

So the more I practise doing to others what I love done to me the more i find that fire i love to illicit in my partners. That "yes i have the power" feeling and mine goes a little deeper into "and i know how good that must feel". I've been told it's like a fire in my eyes.

I'm still timid, but I'm learning and training, and I know it's there. I'm getting more confident in myself everyday. 

I proved it to myself, when I put two friends in rope harnesses and made one get on their knees for me. Without saying a word mind you and present me my chip. All in front of a boisterous crowd of over a hundred. I'm still growing and I can't wait to see what I'm able to become.e

My Mistress

This is an ongoing love story, so i will be adding to it.
We only met a few days ago and clicked almost immediately. The second i sat down she felt a spark of interest that she hasn't felt in a long time. We ended up talking for over 3 hours, mostly her because i was so speechless just being in her presence. She is presous as she has to explain things till it sounds right to her, even though her pauses and thinking has me get what she is trying to get across much before she actually finds the right words.
We've been almost non stop texting ever since about the scene we are planning this weekend. And what a writer she is, she can make me do a happy dance in just a few sentences. As well as being perpetually speechless when ever we talk. I can't wait till tomorrow.